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Dear Reader:

Myesha Jenkins here and … glad to find you on this path.

I’m excited because I’ve never done anything like this before. I’m a poet and performer. I’ve written a few articles, a couple of reviews. So I am nervously excited to be embarking on another journey, this thing called a blog. Where I have to be consistent and make sense and be able to defend my opinions. Well, … its my space to talk about any number of random things that I generally only share with a few close friends.

In Stream of Consciousness you will get an idea of what goes through my head, what I care about, what I see, the values I try and live by. You will also get my attempts to touch that universal Stream of Consciousness that connects us to all living things, including each other. As with any relationship, I embrace the possibilities of my growth, development and understanding. We are building one another.

I’m open, honest and straightforward looking to make connections with and for people. I am an older black woman feminist expat African-American alcoholic spiritualist poet. Whew, is that jacket big enough? I am totally committed to the future, to creating the new. So I’ll be talking from those references; I’m known to be opinionated. I make all apologies now, for my cultural, linguistic, and historical inadequacies. Always know I’m just trying to be a human being, no harm intended.

So hopefully this blog will touch you in some way that encourages discussion and engagement, will allow me to share some of my truths (even half-baked ideas), will let us explore some new territory.

And here’s another, much more personal reflection on who I am.

Autobiography

It was too early
Blood, blood, everywhere
mother hemorrhaging, the priest gave her last rites
sorry father, no hope for baby
Nineteen forty-eight
I was born a rebel at birth
I never had a good relationship with my mother.

I grew, played rough, was smart, had friends
sprouted hair, grew tits and started bleeding
By eight I knew my body was
fearful, shameful, dangerous
That year my brother got married
I was raised like an only child.

I grew into a tomboy girl, achieving girl, woman girl
My first political march at 14 for four black girls just like me
blown up in a Birmingham church.

I loved, married, divorced, lived on stages pretending to be whatever you needed me to be and I drank
College, Black Power, sexuality, a new name, given two months “in Africa” and I drank
Became a communist, studied Marxism Leninism, thought I was a revolutionary
went to meetings, led marches, learned to shoot, organized events, went to Cuba, to Nicaragua and I drank
Women’s Day, AGMs, demonstrations, speaking tours, pamphlets, summations, fundraisers and I drank
Jesse Jackson campaign, Black Community Task Force, Women’s Building, Bay Area Anti-Apartheid Network, Venceremos Brigade, Somos Hermanas and I drank
LA, DC, San Francisco, Atlanta, Berkeley, Oakland and I drank
Bill, Fred, James, Tony, Leon, Ralph, Andy, Vicki, Joy, Michelle, Sandi.

And I drank into insanity
denial, secrets, convulsions, hopelessness
weed, pills, cocaine
Couldn’t be there in my skin
At the bottom there was only up.

Born again at 38.
The goodness of life
began in my struggle to stay sober
to change my outlook on life.
I have survived earthquakes, fires, floods and tornados
nearly drowned in Hawaii
Touched an ancient religion
Met revolutionaries.

I left that home at 44 and made a new one
South Africa’s spirit of freedom absorbed me
I found a poets voice, enjoy young lovers, shout in jazz club and cry for beauty.

There are things that I’m not proud of –
vanity, infidelity, rage, dogmatism, adultery, violence
but I have come to accept what I am.

Worked for rich people and poor people
mostly to change the circumstances of women and black people
Sadly never had children

Still other memories –
tree-lined beaches, abandoned cars with names, road trips, hot tubs, the friendship of women.

I remain a sucker for a jazz musician or poet.
Conscious of politics but no longer active
Obatala and the ancestors light my path
Discovered flying
I find much to be happy about.

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  • Pamela Moeng

    Our paths crossed many years ago. I think we are somehow kindred spirits. The poem spoke to my soul. May light and love follow you.

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  • Straight to the point with a humble flamboyant touch only experiance can purvey.
    Looking forward to this blog.
    peace and love

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  • Palesa

    Heartfelt, profound and forthright. There’s a lot of dignity expressed in this poem – a moving rendition of the power of words. Going from strength to strength Myesha!

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  • Palesa

    Beautiful, heartfelt and forthright. A moving rendition of the power of words. Going from strength to strength Myesha.

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  • Myesha, this is beautiful! I love the photo accompanying autobiography. It’s like it was taken especially. Wonderful to see you using technology to get your presence out there. the next thing is… twitter. aaaagh!!!

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  • matebello

    wow thank u myesha i admire ur honesty realy got thro to my heart,help me look at my soul in a dffrent yet very truthful way no meta wat.thnk u. lookn forwd to readn ur blog.

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  • To “The Auntie i wish I had” welcome aboard may your Stream of Consciousness flow abundantly. Thank you for everything 🙂

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  • Wow Myesha u r a blazing with the power of sincerity. I like your honesty it touches my soul. I thank you for the courage to be genuine, to be true, and to be yourself. You are a walking museum of poetry, song, thought and sum more. Welcome on board I look forward to reading your articles and piquing your mind. Carpe Diem!

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  • and from me… a knowing “welcome on board…” yep, i have no doubt that this Stream will attract sufferers and over-comers alike, great swimmers and bottle paddlers, musicians, Spoken Minds soon to be published and bedroom poets. The consistency of the Stream will be determined by the source… and Myesha, u r an experienced source… not because u chose to be, but because Time has Chosen YOU!!! much love, respekt for the honesty that fills u

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  • Pamela Moeng

    Our paths crossed many years ago. I think we are somehow kindred spirits. The poem spoke to my soul. May light and love follow you.

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  • Straight to the point with a humble flamboyant touch only experiance can purvey.
    Looking forward to this blog.
    peace and love

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  • Palesa

    Heartfelt, profound and forthright. There’s a lot of dignity expressed in this poem – a moving rendition of the power of words. Going from strength to strength Myesha!

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  • Palesa

    Beautiful, heartfelt and forthright. A moving rendition of the power of words. Going from strength to strength Myesha.

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  • Myesha, this is beautiful! I love the photo accompanying autobiography. It’s like it was taken especially. Wonderful to see you using technology to get your presence out there. the next thing is… twitter. aaaagh!!!

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  • matebello

    wow thank u myesha i admire ur honesty realy got thro to my heart,help me look at my soul in a dffrent yet very truthful way no meta wat.thnk u. lookn forwd to readn ur blog.

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  • To “The Auntie i wish I had” welcome aboard may your Stream of Consciousness flow abundantly. Thank you for everything 🙂

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  • Wow Myesha u r a blazing with the power of sincerity. I like your honesty it touches my soul. I thank you for the courage to be genuine, to be true, and to be yourself. You are a walking museum of poetry, song, thought and sum more. Welcome on board I look forward to reading your articles and piquing your mind. Carpe Diem!

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  • and from me… a knowing “welcome on board…” yep, i have no doubt that this Stream will attract sufferers and over-comers alike, great swimmers and bottle paddlers, musicians, Spoken Minds soon to be published and bedroom poets. The consistency of the Stream will be determined by the source… and Myesha, u r an experienced source… not because u chose to be, but because Time has Chosen YOU!!! much love, respekt for the honesty that fills u

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